grossed out,

though I'm posting at LiveJournal (thanks t Jason, I'll always have t type it out in full) now, i know you and your immature friends can see this. someday, or maybe not.

but just. gosh, today I don't give up on you. I'm grossed out by you. gosh.

i've always put s much faith in you, always standing up for what people say about you. but gosh, you're nothing but a piece of shit. yeah, sure, 'brotherhood', my ass. gosh.

no wonder they look at me with this... look everytime. gosh.

look, i'm just someone who doesn't fall out of love with someone easily. i don't need t be with you, yes i'm sure there's someone better. I just don't like comparing. it doesn't mean i'm desperate and i bloody need you so much.

goodness. seriously. i'm so so so grossed out. i'm sure your entire class knows, you know, gosh, i have dignity and pride too. i think you're so so gross. and yes, that's the worse I can get I'm not gonna say any vulgarities, cus you know what? You're so not worth it.

Yeah be happy now, that's what you want isn't it.

Bastard.

You're a bastard.

you know what? it didn't matter whether th feelg was mutual or not, 'cus right now it doesn't matter t me anymore. it sickens me t think tht i once trustd you s much.

i think you really suck.

if i had never talkd t him in th council room perhaps i'd never know and would always be labeled as desperate. but goodness, i don't think i can d anything abt it anym.

yeah, you're "not as good as i think you am", you're much worse.

i think i'm so stupid, i could kill myself.

now i don't think i can ever feel anymre for someone so spineless, oblivious and zomg.

gosh.

i never should have fought for love.
especially for you.

i did more than i did for anyone else, even chuan.

i think i'm stupid, that's all.

rest assured, as much as I can stay out of you and your 'brothers'' way, i will.
i won't appear.